I had a wonderful time this evening. I do love to talk and reflect and see what new things arise with different conversations. I did however find myself in an unusually vulnerable position! To put forth something that is possibly my most awkward and that others often don't find awkward at all, and with people that I don't know sharing thoughts on myself about things I perhaps had not been willing to face... but clearly wanted to or it wouldn't have come up at all! It's always fantastic leaving an evening feeling like you are better for it, feeling fresh, clear and with new perspective. While when I left I felt like having quite a carpe diem moment, I can't say the nerves haven't set back in a tad.
Que sera, sera... I only believe in being comfortable with this so long as you've made the effort in the first place. For example, completely off topic but to get the point accross... A job is not simply going to be there waiting for you, you have to apply... work on the resume... then whatever will be, will be, and I see no further point in stressing about it. I don't believe anything will happen with out doing something first, once that's done then it is quite out of my hands and I'm happy to wait for the answer.
It's exciting really. It is not going to be the end if it doesn't happen, even if it is what you were hoping for. Something else will be there. This is why I always believe that things will be ok. The poor people that have become infuriated over hearing it will be ok. It isn't something I say without another thought... It's that I don't believe things have a choice but to be ok. The only way things won't be ok, is if you were to give up completely. Not just in one aspect of your life, but everything! Otherwise... things will get there eventually. Life doesn't stop at your best moments, therefore it also doesn't stop at your bleakest.
A couple of pics from my most recent roadtrip.
